oh golly

have you ever had a silly crush on someone that is basically unreachable? well i never really had one until now. :)



stacy of eisley. :) man, what a pretty girl.

almost there

ive been in the library for about 5 hours now. im tired and im hungry. : / i finished my comm theory paper not too long ago and now im studying for the comm theory test thats at 4:30. man i cant wait to sleep in my bed tonight.



back to studying...

what a lame week

sometimes i wish school was optional but unfortunately its not. : / im at this coffee shop called Cricket's Creamery & Caffe where angela works at. im supposed to be starting on my comm theory paper but im still trying to figure out how to start it.



i love free wi-fi. i think i might start going to coffee shops more often. :)
they have too many flavors to choose from. i feel like a kid all over again.



someone needs to start a petition to get acceptance back together and tour again.


listen to
acceptance- in the cold

acceptance

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

its time for fall

i woke up around 7am cause i had a dentist appointment. that was lovely. i was all groggy and i parked in the wrong building which made my morning even better. then i went to work from 10-12. today was national boss's day so our office had a pot luck deal and the food looked deeelishh. but i had class from 230-4 which was lame but my co-workers saved me a plate which was awesome of them. :) so after class i headed back to work and ate what my co-workers saved me. and man it was a damn good lunch. i ended up doing the same thing at work the whole time which included scanning old files and sorting papers. that was fun must i tell you.



theres alot more papers behind that stack. and it grew taller throughout the day. and i found out something that i never thought would exist. its soooo goooooooodddd.



i get bored sometimes and get on AIM. and guess who was on? karina. she entertained me for a good 10 minutes.



that was pretty much my day. long and boring and uneventful. :)
the office comes on tonight. im excited about that. till tomorrow.

later

done

im sick of trying so hard for someone. its time for things to go my way. tonight will be the start of me not putting myself out there to be disappointed. this is getting ridiculous. why give a shit about someone who doesnt give a shit or even thinks about taking the time to make you feel like youre still apart of their life?

fuck it.

clean room

i just got done cleaning my room and it is pretty damn awesome. i feel all clean and stuff.

i should've taken a before picture but oh well. i even organized my cork board which was all over the place.

i made sure i had space for the parking ticket i got in downtown. :)
and i just realized that i pretty much play only marshall amps.

i swear im not obsessed... it just happened to be that way. haha.
i even cleaned the top of my tv. i used to clutter it.

and yes i have 2 deodorants and i use polo black. with those powers combined, i smell like paradise. :)


i pretty much did nothing else today. just layed in bed and slept so i would feel better. another boring monday once again. tomorrow i have my interview with livenation at 4 which will hopefully be good. ill let you know what happens.

hopefully your night is going better than mine. im exhausted once again.

we are birds

today was loonnngg. it started out with going to U.H to pick up ariel and melissa. we (well... i think i was the only one) drank some of melissa's special coffee concoction. it was delicious. after that we went to go get my oil change. the wait was pretty long. maybe an hour and a half. we got pretty bored.

this is us waiting in the waiting room and ariel with his pimpin $100 sunglasses. after that we headed over to memorial city mall where we tried to find shoes and anything else that was cheap that we found. in the end neither of us had bought anything other than food. so afterwards we headed over to DSW to find some shoes and of course ariel found some pimpin shoes.

they're kenneth cole's which make them even 10x better. i needed shoes for marco's wedding next saturday so we made a "roadtrip" to first colony to find the shoes i wanted which in the end wasn't even the shoe i got.
they almost look like this but with different stitching designs

i know what youre thinking. ariel and i got basically the same shoes. haha. the answer is "sort of". whatever. the fact is that we both got brand new spankin shoes that are better than yours. :)

that was pretty much my day. it has been a long day and now i am on the phone with laura and watching the oregon vs. ucla football game. till tomorrow kids.

song of the day
brighten - we are birds

top of the morning to you

good morning world. my fridays are getting lamer and lamer each week. im always tired after work. yesterday i got off at 6 and i went straight home to sleep till 9. then i went over to angela's place to go chill for a bit. played guitar hero of course and that was pretty much it. i was exhausted. i watched the office for a bit. im starting to get a feel for that show. but nothing beats scrubs. :)

today i will be hanging out with ariel and melissa while i look for clothes for marco's wedding next saturday. that should be exciting. ill post something later tonight. ill post pictures from today's adventures later today.




this is an "action shot" from last night. my camera phone isn't that great. but i cant argue, it is 3mp.

leslie

photo credit: catherine
so this is my baby. well.. the back of it.

uneventful

today was another one of those boring weekdays consisting of work, work, and work. lame.

i guess heres a couple of pics.



this is one of my co-workers who make my workdays more interesting than it is. :)




random picture of abraham lincoln drawn by somebody in '79. crazy

that was pretty much my day. the rockets are about to play. schweet.
GO ROCKETS!

numb

so i just got off the phone with molly. it makes me really happy to hear her voice. but at the same time it makes me sad that i dont get to hear that voice everyday. i dont know what to do anymore. im so half and half on everything. a part of me is like move on, theres probably better things out there. the other half of me is like, do what your heart feels. if you love her, stay with her. im just so confused. im glad to hear that shes been having fun at school. i want nothing more than for her to be happy. what do you do when a person you love is 2000 miles away and you have no idea if that person still has feelings for you? i like to think that im doing fine and living my life. but when theres things everywhere that remind you of that person, its hard to not think about them. theres so many questions i want to ask her but i dont have the nerve to because i dont want to push her away even more than she is. lets just put it out there though.

what am i to you?
do you still have any feelings whatsoever?
would you ever consider getting back together?
have you found someone else?


thatll pretty much sum it all up. everything that was new to me, i wanted to experience it with her. i learned so many things and met so many people and had so many fun experiences with her. and the great thing was the fact that i did experience all those great times with her. i didnt want it to stop. i dont want to let go what i once had. it was honestly the best time of my life. but well see waht the future holds. i dont think she knows this but she definitely still has my heart. and fuck people who think im ridiculous. it just sucks because i know ill def push her away even more if she knew all this. but im just tired of holding myself back and lying to myself. thats pretty much it. im done for the night.

surprise

so i woke up to this girls face this morning. i think her eyes are crossed but i cant tell. either way, shes crazy.




emery has a new song. check it
myspace.com/emery

a girl named catherine

its funny how you meet someone after 1 day and you feel like youve known them forever.

so theres this girl named catherine. she reminds me alot of myself back when i thought i knew the world perfectly. if i looked at her for 5 minutes i wouldve thought she was the chillest person ever. but shes gone through alot of stuff that would make my experiences seem like a small problem.

but shes a cool kid. so this blog goes out to her.


<3 keep your head up

dead end

So the flood gates open but nothing comes out
I’m feeling no relief in my head, just doubt
But my heart keeps telling me ‘hold your ground.
You’ll never learn a thing if you bail out now’

And I’m lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I’m not getting stronger.

Yet hold me against the light
And do you see any bullet inside?
Wouldn’t find one if you magnified
Because you’ve got the wrong girl

Had my fingers around the back of your chair
You’d never missed a thing but you missed me there
And I just kept thinking ‘Am I prepared
To pull it out from under your trusting stare?’

Now the house is quiet as a hollow head
And I’m walking round bumping into things you said
This has not been as easy as I thought it would
I’d be cooling down the fire if I thought I could.

And the flood gates open but nothing comes out

a good night

i hung out with these guys last night. it was the first night since july that i actually felt like i can be myself again. theyre great


go listen to
Missy Higgins - The Wrong Girl

great music